Feeling Grateful

Am I really leaving in 2 days? So crazy. Feels like yesterday that I was flying out to Alaska!

I am so incredibly pumped to compete though. I can’t wait to get to Denver and see all my friends and teammates. Looking forward to cheering them on for a couple days before I take the platform on Sunday.

I got my game plan from my coach today, I spent some time talking about goals and attempts with my friend/teammate Ross (who is handling me during competition), I did my last light lifting session, I packed up my lifting gear…. and I am ready to go!

It’s pretty crazy to think that when I moved to Montana in December I had no plans to compete this year. After moving, I was pretty damn confused about my training, kinda scared to be working out alone in my basement, and very nervous about if I would be seeing any gains at all without my awesome lifting partners in Brooklyn. Since then however, I feel I’ve really focused up and made some great improvements to my training style (though I obviously miss all my lifting friends from Brooklyn, a lot). Lonely or not though things have been great since moving into my basement and joining team SSPT… I’ve added 35 pounds to my total, I’ve made dozens of awesome friends across the country, and am getting ready for my second competition this year! Training by myself has actually got me soooooo much more consistent and focused in my training. I am loving it all, and more than anything I am loving working with my coach, Matt Gary. He’s an absolutely awesome guy and puts such an amazing positive vibe out about everything. There is no stress about anything and he’s always ready to see the positive in any situation, and willing to talk me through any worries or concerns I have (and trust me I have had MANY… injuries, first time competing in years, traveling alone for competitions… etc.) He is just wonderful and never makes me feel any less important than one of his rockstar lifters. Since I’ve been working with him, I’m not stressed about my lifting, I’m not worried about my programming… I’m just working hard, and having FUN! Plus, I’m seeing great progress! I really can’t speak highly enough about him, team SSPT, and everything that they do for me.

So happy to be lifting as a part of their team this weekend :)

Anyway, I may or may not post again before I compete but I will definitely let ya’ll know how it goes!


Lentil Soup — Vegan, Vegetarian, Paleo(ish), Clean… you name it, it’s good!

Last night, for unknown reasons, my body decided it was totally DONE with having food in it and launched into hours of awesome non-stop vomiting (fun…). I was pretty sure I was going to die, shaking in my sweaty cold skin, hugging the toilette like it was my long lost lover. I have no idea what I ate, or who’s awful germs got into my system during all those plane trips recently… but it wasn’t fun!

I’m happy that part is over, but today has been pretty fricken miserable trying to recover from it all. I am running on little to no sleep, I’m dehydrated as hell, and I have absolutely no nutrients in my body. It feels crummy. I actually had to leave work early so that I could get some sleep.

I’ve got a competition in 5 days and I can’t be going in like this! I just want to eat ALL THE FOOD so that I can feel normal again but… my belly is sensitive and it doesn’t want to let me. So, lentil soup was sounding pretty good today! Lots of veggies, fiber, protein, and nutrients. Plus it’s pretty easy on the belly, and able to be eaten niiiice and slow.

This is probably one of the best soups I have ever made. It’s totally from scratch, and I absolutely love it. I might be making it a very regular part of my life from here on out.

  • 1 cup dried lentils, rinsed
  • 1 vidalia onion, chopped
  • 4 cloves garlic, thinly sliced
  • 1 large carrot, chopped
  • 1 large stalk of celery, chopped
  • 1 tsp rosemary, finely chopped
  • 1 tsp thyme leaves
  • 1 tsp salt
  • 3 tbsp olive oil
  • 8 cups water

In a large pot, heat the olive oil to medium. Throw in all the vegetables and spices and sauté for 10-15 minutes, stirring constantly as the onions and garlic brown (this part smells AMAZING).

Turn the heat to med-low, add the dry lentils and salt to the pot, and sauté everything another 5 minutes — letting the veggies and lentils roast and brown in any remaining oil.

Add the water to the pot. Turn the heat to high and bring to a boil. Reduce heat to low, cover, and simmer, stirring occasionally, until the lentils and carrots have softened completely.

Serve hot, Eat up!

Home from Italy!! Ready for Nationals!!! (7 days)

Heyoooo so, life got nuts again. After my mom left, I thought it was time to calm down and snuggle up with Jeff for some relaxing stress free times before nationals, but I was wrong.

My boss called me Monday and said “I need you in Italy by tomorrow night for a meeting” so…that’s what happened. I jumped on the first plane out of Missoula, and I made my way to Italy. It was a LOT of flying.

The trip was great, but it was hectic, and being surrounded by the most amazing home made pastas and charcuterie ever (in addition to lots of stress) did not help me cut weight at all.

That said…. I did get to hang out in Verona, Italy for a few days, so that was absolutely awesome and I won’t complain about being lucky enough to have that be an accidental/unexpected part of my life! So beautiful!

Plus… I got a new tattoo while I was there! A little mandala flower with an eyeball in the middle. On my right wrist :) I love it.

Weight Cut

I returned to Missoula late Friday night and decided to re-schedule my flights to Denver so that I can compete in the 84K weight class (or whatever it is… something like 25# heavier than I am haha!). Yes, I COULD cut down to 72Kilos (it’s only 4 pounds after all) but I’m pretty sure there is no way in hell I would perform well and it just doesn’t sound fun right now. I just want to go lift and not be all stressed out about that. The thought of focusing on cutting weight after the past two months of traveling and running around like a mad woman is just too much for me. I want to just go, lift some heavy shit, and enjoy myself. And that’s what I am planning to do!

So yeah… BIG AND STRONG! HELL YES! I am actually SUPER psyched to not be cutting and even though I will likely be the weakest girl in my weight class, I am so happy to be there. I will feel GOOD on the platform! That is super important to me right now. Plus, I can eat icecream if I want before competing! Hell yes.


Oh yeah also…. when I got back from Italy, I found that my husband has turned vegan on me! #whichisfuckinginsane!!! This was a VERY big surprise to me, but a very interesting one as well. He explained his new dietary goals as “Vegan, plus organic locally farmed meats every once in a while”… which is actually an AWESOME sounding diet if you ask me. I have been eating this way with him since returning form Italy and we’ve been enjoying the HUGE amount of fruits and vegetables required to live on vegetables alone. It feels great honestly and I’m looking forward to experimenting with this for a while. Finding good proteins will be a fun game. I’ll probably be eating a bit more meat than he will since I’m training (and he’s injured so he can’t). But, I really like eating an inordinate amount of veggies every day, and I also like the idea of not eating a bunch of bullshit meat. Either way, it should be fun! Lots of smoothies, green juices, and fruity oatmeal :) Nommmmm.


Training has been great! Mostly resting up for Nationals really, but I did push my bench a bit today for my final volume session and I nailed a 127# single FIVE TIMES. I feel pretty great about that as it is a 7# PR and hitting it so many times means it is not a fluke! Looking forward to hitting that at the meet, and maybe if things are going well, 60K (holy moly). I can feel myself finally closing in on the 135# benchpress after all these years. I honestly didn’t think I would ever be able to bench as much as I am lately, it has been a huge struggle. But I am SO HAPPY to be where I am (even if it’s embarrassingly light compared to other lifters my size)

Squats were good today too. I hit 92% for singles without my belt. This is my last heavy squat day before the meet (and a beltless PR!).

Sorry for the long confusing rambling post. I’m just trying to get all these feels and thinks out of my head and into my blog as quickly as possible! I will try to post more often before the competition :)

18 Days – Fuck Your Bikini Body



Today’s training session was great. Squats, bench, and deadlifts…. but most importantly… deadlifts :) Worked up to some heavy singles and they felt good!

Squat: Worked up to 4×3@87K (192#) light day, all was fine.

Bench: Worked up to 5×3@47K(101#) Easy breezyyyy

Deadlifts: Worked up to 4×1@130K(286#) These felt great :) This was a couple kilos over myrecommended weight but my coach said I could do shit like that if I am feeling good. So I did!

On a side note, I’ve started using the hashtag #fuckyourbikinibody on instagram. I am just sick of everyone talking about their fucking abs (or their need/desire for them). Seriously, who gives a fuck. Feel free to join in on the fun — it’s for strong women who don’t give a fuck about abs (or really any women who don’t give a fuck about abs). There are more important things in the world.

On that note… DIET AND WEIGHT CUT!

Food Log: 


2 eggs
1 piece toast
tomatoes, onions, cilantro

1/2 cup cottage cheese
1/2 cup apple sauce
1 banana

1 cod fillet
1 cup asparagus

1/2 cup cottage cheese

2 tilapia fillets
tomatoes, onions, cilantro

Today’s Drawing: 

More work on the warrior woman

19 Days

Today was rest day, so nothing to talk about really. Honestly, today may have been the most boring day of my life. Just worked (with no urgency), and drew a little… I am so ready for Jeff to get home from Seattle, I miss our normal life. It’s been like a month since we’ve just been normal, both home, without guests in the house. SO ready for normal again.

I did a tarot card reading this morning. It was cool…Past & present cards were nailed how I’ve been feeling about life/training lately. Overly introverted & heady tendencies pushed into a plan, hard work, and action… should lead to being the queen of my hobbies!

Diet was good today, I feel pretty happy with it and think if I can stick with it and can rock the water cut I’ll be able to get down to 158 by nationals.

164# this morning.

2 eggs in butter
1 tomato

1 cup cottage cheese

1 pork chop
1/2 cup apple sauce

1 cup cottage cheese

1 pork chop
1 cup edamama
1 apple

Tomatoes with salt (YUM!)

Today’s Drawing: 

Put in some work on this red headed warrior woman. I like it a lot so far and am looking forward to working on it more tomorrow.

20 Days til Nationals


Bench: 8×2@48K (107#) Easy breezy
Feeling suuuuper tired from waking up at 5:30am to take my mom to the airport so I skipped accessory work today. Gonna get back on that boat next week. So happy to have life back to normal :)

1 mile walk

Food Log:

2 eggs
1/2 slice sourdough toast

handful of black licorice
1 cup kiefer

1 pork chop
1 apple

1 pork chop
1/2 cup (dry) barley
1/2 cup apple sauce

Today’s Drawing:

21 Days Til Nationals

Back Progress :) Feelin jacked!

Training was good this morning — a quick and easy day of heavy squats.

Squats: 3×1@105K(231#) 3×2@90K(209#) (first set of each weight without my belt)
Posterior Chain – Pistols – 3×8 each leg to bench
Abs – 3×8 ab wheel

2 eggs, 1/4 an onion
1/2 slice of bacon
1 banana

1 banana
2 scoops whey

2/3# ground beef burger
2 slices sourdough toast
tomato, cheddar, fry-sauce, 2 onion rings

3 ribs
1 pulled pork sandwich (only ate a couple bites of the bun)
1 cup cole slaw

a couple pieces of black licorice scattered through the day

Today’s Drawing: 

More work on the crying queen

Weight Cut Count Down – 22 Days of Food Log

Alrighty well, I weighed in 10# over my weight class this morning and that put a little hustle in my step. Time to get serious about this stupid cut. I know most of this weight is water (since I was 5# lighter 3 days ago… )… but still. I don’t have a really restrictive plan to write about, just eating better, watching my portions, and cutting out all booze and sugar.

Today was cool, just rested from yesterday’s lifting, tried to eat better, refused all booze, and went fishin!

I found this sweet ass bug shell while I was out fishing :) 

2 poached eggs
2 pieces breakfast sausage
1/2 slice sourdough toast
2 cups coffee

a couple little snacks here and there… nothing significant because I was out fishing all day. I think I pretty much just ate some string cheese & licorice (next time, I’ll plan ahead haha)

2 pork chops
1 cup apple sauce

1 gallon of water.

Today’s Drawing 

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Fat & Strong

Heyooooo, still chillin with my mom lately. So, posting is sporadic. I’m very excited for life to return to normal soon, but I am also loving every minute of my vacation time with my mom :)

We went up to Glacier National Park yesterday and had a wonderful time sight seeing, fishing, drinking beer, and eating FAR too much food.

I am SO FAR over my fucking weight class right now that it’s scary… but I am hoping it’s mostly just water weight from my period and a week of shitty eating and drinking.

I decided that I need to get back to healthy eating (starting TODAY) and drinking only water. I think that I will get closer to the 158# I need, quickly, if I do that. 3 weeks is enough time to cut 10# right? ugh. My slow and steady plan really didn’t work, I wasn’t expecting all this traveling and vacationy stuff… Oh well, I’m enjoying my life and I can’t complain. I made my choices and I am totally OK with them.

Training, on the other hand, is… amazing. I am getting STRONG. I can feel PRs on all lifts deep in my bones.

Tuesday I hit some heavy deadlifts: 5×1@275# then 3×1@250# all very easy.


I also did some speedy light squats at 203# It’s amazing how easy 200# is feeling these days… like how 135 used to feel. I love it.

Yesterday, I benched 7 singles at 90% – 110#. These were SO EASY and smooth and just perfect. By my 7th set I decided to do a rep out for fun. I hit SEVEN REPS. Which means… 120# is prooobably not my max anymore. I can not wait to test. I just hope the weight cut doesn’t effect this too much.

I have started training with some SERIOUS mental focus. I can feel my body hitting all the points it needs to, and head getting psyched up to compete. It rocks. I am lifting like a motha fucking robot and it feels great!! CAN’T WAIT TO PUT ALL THIS TRAINING TO GOOD USE AT NATIONALS!!! AHHHH!!!

Home from NYC, Chillin with my Mom

I am finally home from Brooklyn!! All my work deadlines have passed and life is returning back to it’s blissful perfect Montana ‘normal’!

Jeff and I just celebrated our 6 year wedding anniversary, and I am so happy to be back home with him <3

My mom is now visiting, and I have been enjoying some awesome mother-daughter time for the past couple days with her :)

Training is still going well and everything is feeling smooth and easy!

Last week’s deadlifts were super easy (BELTLESS!!) at 265#.

My Squats, light deadlifts, and bench were great this weekend.

I am looking forward to some heavy deadlifts this afternoon!! So excited about it. I ate a huge breakfast to prepare :)

Nationals are approaching rapidly – only 25 days or so!! I booked my flights and hotels yesterday so I am READY TO GO! Just gotta keep my nose to the grindstone and keep training consistently.

My biggest issue right now is the weight cut (as usual). It is a nightmare, and I have been avoiding the scale, scared to see what 2 weeks in Brooklyn has done to my progress before I left. I am on my period right now, so I won’t be weighing in until it’s over in a few days. ::sigh:: cutting is hard. All in all, I am not too worried about it because it’s such a small amount of weight I can just do a water cut if necessary… I just wanted to avoid it. We’ll see how it’s looking next week.

Maybe I am ‘heavy’ but I am a fucking babe! AMIRIGHT?!?!

Drawings are also going well!! Still sticking to my goals of drawing almost every day and the practice is paying off :)

Brandon Stark and the Three Eyed Crow

Fortune Teller