As I sat on my deck eating a fucking hot dog(!!!!) because it was available, and it was easy, and because the calories would fit my daily allowance, I realized… this is fucking stupid!!!
I’ve been following all of the ‘rules’, counting up all the macros, reading all the labels, and very rarely “cheating” on my new “calorie and macro counting” diet, but it’s fucking stupid. The quality of food I’ve been eating lately has been total ass. I feel like I’m basically starving myself, and on top of that, I am not even doing it with quality foods. After a 4 months of “not limiting any specific foods”, “practicing moderation”, and a month of “calorie counting” I am so totally sick of what I’m doing.
I miss the simplicity of paleo — “Say yes to these foods, say no to these foods” IT’S SO EASY! All this weighing, measuring, prepping, counting, adding, subtracting…. BLAH! KILL ME! I am so over it. I work 50-60 hours a week, at an extremely high stress job, and I do not have time for counting calories anymore. I am clearly not cut out to be a body builder and I am TOTALLY OKAY with that. Hope ya’ll don’t think I’m a quitter for cutting my 10 week challenge early. I’m just not interested in running that experiment anymore.
On a positive note, I did learn a lot about portion sizes over the past few months and I plan to keep working on that. Starting tomorrow however, I need to switch my focus back over to food quality rather than food quantity. I feel gross and my brain is deteriorating thinking about numbers and percentages this much outside of work & lifting. I think simply incorporating the lessons learned about portion sizes will help me continue to lose weight as I approach the powerlifting meet in December.
- Meats (grass fed, organic, free range as much as possible)
- Protein Powder
- Potatoes & Starchy Tubers
- Olive Oil
- Grass Fed Butter
- Coconut Milk
- Heavy Cream
- Not too often extras
- Home made nut breads/baked goods
- Honey, Agave, Maple Syrup
- Vegetable & Refined Oils
SIDE NOTE: I DO remember that I thought my hormones were fucked up while I was eating Paleo in the past. I haven’t gotten any better since I added all these other foods back into my life, and perhaps, I’ve even gotten worse. I honestly don’t think my mental situation has shit to do with my diet. I think I really just need to get my ass to the doctor to get my ADD/Anxiety dosages checked out.
Relevant Reading: Which Diet Is Right For You?