So, I’m keeping this post short because I don’t really want to talk about it much. That said, I feel like I should put it on here… I fell off the wagon over the holidays and put an end to my 8 month sober streak. I tried to convince myself that it was OK for me to drink, that I deserve to be normal, and that I can do what I want, but, after a week of being “normal”, I am feeling run-down, ashamed of my choices, and not very strong under the barbell. My body doesn’t like drinking. My brain doesn’t either. I need to remember that when the alcoholic half of my genes start trying to take over.
Anyway, I am jumping back on the wagon, and will try not to fall for my own mental tricks in the future. I’m just going to pick up where I left off and try to learn from my mistakes.