I am writing out of habit tonight, not because I want to. I’m in a pretty dog shit mood and hardly feel like thinking about my lifting.
After what was one of the most mentally intense & stressful days of work I have ever had, my “free yourself from work” lifting session was cut short by a nice big POP in my lower back. Now, my shit hurts, BAD, and I am pretty fucking bummed out.
1 cup of coffee with cream
2 scoops whey
1/2 cup (dry) cream of wheat and 7 grain oats
Week 2 Day 1 w/ Coach Matt Gary:
I probably shouldn’t have ignored that fact that my back felt a little weird after Saturday’s session. I am definitely kicking myself for it today. I just didn’t have the balls to fess up to falling off track when I just started a new program. Anyway… here we are. Time for some rest I suppose, waiting to hear back from Matt, and seriously I am feeling so thankful that I hired a coach recently. I just don’t have another completely unguided injury in me right now.
Squat: 1×5@20K, 1×5@60K, 1×3@75K, 5×5@91K – these all felt fine. I was a little nervous about my achy back, so I belted after 2nd set of squats. My nerves were calmed after doing this and everything felt good. All the squats felt good, tight, and deep.
I felt like I had a nice little breakthrough on my squats today actually — If I tuck my elbows harder, I end up keeping my chest up better and fall into a better groove altogether. My depth is better, and I don’t end up doing a “squat morning” with collapsing knees out of the hole. This was a great realization! Going to continue working on this.
Deadlifts: 1×5@66K, 1×3@80K, 1×2@96K, 8×1@106K – I only got to the 3rd set, then I hurt my back. So I stopped there, went upstairs, and cried for a while (because I was upset that my training is going to stall and I don’t want to be injured again, not because it hurt)
I took a nice hot bath, and am going to ice my back now.
I’ll probably go get a massage in a day or two. ::sigh::
2 scoops of why
Bowl of rice with butter
Dirty Rice – ground beef, rice, spices, veggies